Black Hole Zion: December 2019

Tuesday, December 31, 2019


What’s holding you back and what are you going to do about it?

Although I don’t really put much stock into New Years resolutions, I think it’s kind of natural to reflect on the year past and the year ahead.  When that comes up in thought, my mind responds with, “What’s holding you back and what are you going to do about it?”

I’ll go first.  What’s holding me back?  I get frustrated, disappointed, and angry at other people, systems in place, and, of course, myself.  That sounds pretty broad, but for me, those are the kind of things that bug me the most.  People can be awful to one another.  The world isn’t progressing fast enough in a positive direction.  I lose my temper or get depressed.  I let all of that and more get to me too much sometimes.

What am I doing about it?  I keep pushing on even when I don’t want to.  I try to be nice to folks that deserve it and sometimes even to those that don’t.  I try to stand up to the bullies of the world or at least don’t let them bully me (calmly if I can). I create things and try to put as much meaning into them as I can.  Making music together in this band.  If I have spare time, I spend it with my wife, dogs, friends, and family.  I donate money to good causes and try to help people and animals.  I do yoga, other exercise, reiki, meditation and all that kind of stuff.  I don’t do any of this enough, and I continue to work on it.

This should not be all about me though.  I’m more curious to know about the folks reading it.  Comment or direct message if you don’t want others to see.  Just the action of you writing it might help someone else.

So, I’ll ask it again.  What’s holding you back and what are you going to do about it?